Hmmm...I'm not sure if the difference is evident, but the difference is there or should I say, less of me is here, now.
I would like to report on my successes. I am down to 156.6 and wearing a size 10 at most stores. This equates to a size small or medium in women's or a size medium to large in juniors. I can hardly believe that I wear a junior size anything... I bought a pair of junior size 11 skinny jeans. It is really unbelievable to me. My bra size went from a 36DD bra down from 38DD. I wonder if a size 36D would fit... I notice more flab on my body and don't like that, so I'm trying to strength train. My areas of focus are legs, arms and stomach.
Best of all, I can wear a size 10 at most stores. At some stores this is a 12 and some stores this is an 8. My goal was only to be a size 8. So, I am almost there. I am just a pound or 2 past the halfway point. So, I've come a long way and also have quite a bit in front of me. But, this is such an accomplishment. It has been so long since I was a size 10. Probably about 7-8 years. For a former fat girl, I feel skinny. High heels are more comfy. My feet may have shrunk, too. I finally bought some new clothes. Just a few items, though. I don't want a closet full of clothes of all sizes, I'd like to get rid of all of my big clothes.
I have had a serious case of the munchies...aughhh! I have chalked it up to the strength training increasing my metabolism and have given in to the repeated cravings in moderation. Usually, what I like to do is determine why I'm having a craving and do something else to satisfy it. For example, if I really want chocolate milk, I may need fat or be having a sweet tooth. For a sweet tooth craving, prunes will usually kill the craving. For a cream/fat craving, it means my diet has been too low fat. But I have had chocolate cravings, mocha cravings and coffee cravings for about a week and they won't go away. I don't know what to do.
Today I ate:
*110 cal 2-3 bottles of cocoa bean flavored diet mix. It is called Right Size, and tastes very good to me. It has fiber and protein. I use less mix than the directions call for.
* free 1 bottle water
*275 Some espresso filled chocolates from Trader Joes
(Yesterday I drank chocolate slim fast)
*485 I also ate a quesadilla with at least 2 servings of cheese approx 300 on a flour tortilla 130 with refried beans 55
*150 2 boiled eggs today. I was freaking hungry...WTF?!
*I also had a sip or 2 of some diet pepsi-whew! yesterday I drank about 1/2 bottle of diet pepsi that made me feel ill...like I used to feel all of the time. And it was not due to the caffeine alone, since I drink black coffee nd drink green tea and sometimes drink low cal energy drinks and take diet meds with caffeine on occassion. It must be the chemicals in the soda. ewww.
*80 appetite curbing drink with hoodia, blueberry juice, etc.
*200 Today I also ate some broccoli, cahsew and mushroom sauce in a frozen bag at Trader Joes and ate about 1/2 or 3/4 bag of that, it was slammin!
1300 total
That is a lot of calories and I haven't had dinner yet. Maybe I'll skip it or have veggies only. Thiis what happens when you don't plan your meals or track what you eat. And I may have had more cheese than is reported. I didn't measure.
On the bright side, I only ate 1300-1600 calories and that is right around my goal weight maintainance. I will try to log in and record my food intake tomorrow, too, so I can at least stay on track for maintenance. It's a good thing hat on a fucked up day I still didn;t go crazy. This is the thing about weight loss, keeping up good healthy eating habits even when life is crazy.
Also on the bright side, I did a few hundred cruchies and reduced my work obligations.
Some ideas for tomorrow:
Drink water! Lots of it before every meal. and between each meal.
Eat a small breakfast even if I'm not hungry. With all food groups.
Don't eat the chocolates. They dodn;t give me much energy and took a lot to curb my chocolate craving.
Eat all veggies for lunch. Not quesadillas or eggs. If I'm really wanting quesadilla and eggs, eat whites only or just 1 yolk or a mostly veggie or mostly bean quesadilla with veggies and just a sprinkling of chese on 1/2 tortilla.
Did I tell you I have been tired? Really tired like I don't know what to do. Shoot. And cranky/grumpy. I wonder if I should do the master cleanse again? I quit on day 6 last time. Lately, I have been wanting to feel full. What is that about?!
I will try to see if taking better care of myself will help me to take care of my health. I should go to bed early. I will try to.
